To be honest I just am in a writing mood, but I have no real theme to this post. :) Who know's what I'll talk about, but here we go!

So today is (1am...) the 2nd of May. As in=11 days left of being a minor...seventeen years old. Yes, the fact that I turn 18 in less than two weeks IS freaking me out just a tad. But I'm also really excited! I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT I'VE BEEN IN BRAZIL OVER 8 MONTHS!! Seriously, this time has really flown by and it's getting hard for me. By that I mean- It's difficult to stay happy all the time when I know that I'm leaving in less than 3 months, that my exchange is in it's final stretch. I just LOVE IT HERE SO MUCH! It will be hard for me to leave Brazil, I am 100% sure of that. 100% scared for what is to come after exchange. I'm just not sure about how I'll handle it...For those of you who I will see when I return, I ask you to just keep in mind that, if I seem distracted or sad...It's not easy for me and that I'll get through it, I'm just going to take it slowly. We will just have to see what the future holds...

Speaking about the future...I'M REALLY FREAKED OUT ABOUT THAT! You see, it was three years ago that I decided I wanted to go on an Rotary Youth Exchange. I was sure of that decision, from the moment of the interviews, acception, departure. I never had doubts that it was something I wanted to do. Even when it was hard my first few months here, I knew for sure I was going to stay the whole year because it was going to get better - and it sure has gotten better, so much I want to live here forever. But my point is. I have had my next life goal figured out for 3 years - Rotary exchange...well now that I'm here, and it's passing by oh so quickly...I don't know what my next step is! My next life goal, dream, big huge crazy leap that people will laugh at me for when I tell them about it, but then pat me on the back for making my dreams come true. (cheesy I know...) Seriously though. What is next for Sara Zwink? That my dear friends, I guess we will figure out together.

If you have any ideas for what I should do next, seriously, any opportunities or ANYTHING, I'm up for it all. Let me know!

I think I'm just going to leave it at this...this is what has been going through my head for the past month, so that's how I'm doing - confused. :/

Basically, as far as a Brazil update goes. I'm moving into my last famliy, in the next two weeks. My current family is awesome, it's a single mom with a 3yr old daughter. It has it's hard points, it's a bit farther out of the city, and sometimes it's hard with the child...but I love this mom soo much, she knows everything about my life, I can and do tell her everything. I will really miss her and I'm sure I'll be spending some more nights here even after I move. Other than that, life is amazing, I love my friends here, and will miss them like crazy when I return to Alaska.

Life is good. And for that I'm so very thankful.

God bless :)

As always, thanks for reading, leave me a comment please! I love to hear from you!

~Sara